1 00:03:03,517 --> 00:03:05,644 A while ago I started thinking about Mom. 2 00:03:08,981 --> 00:03:10,649 She gets up alone every morning... 3 00:03:14,320 --> 00:03:16,322 and then she goes to work. 4 00:03:17,489 --> 00:03:19,742 She's alone most of the day, 5 00:03:21,201 --> 00:03:25,456 and then she gets home and goes to sleep alone. 6 00:03:30,210 --> 00:03:31,378 It's really sad. 7 00:03:34,757 --> 00:03:38,302 And when I started thinking like that, I thought I will never become like Mom. 8 00:03:39,219 --> 00:03:40,596 I will never be alone. 9 00:03:44,558 --> 00:03:46,644 But I just understand it. 10 00:03:55,194 --> 00:03:56,195 I'm lonely. 11 00:04:00,616 --> 00:04:01,617 I can tell. 12 00:04:04,745 --> 00:04:07,498 I don't know if going to Bergen will make me less lonely. 13 00:04:08,791 --> 00:04:09,791 I hope it does. 14 00:04:11,877 --> 00:04:13,003 But I'm not convinced. 15 00:04:15,172 --> 00:04:18,634 I thought moving out would make everything better. 16 00:04:19,635 --> 00:04:22,638 It would all be perfect and I would have my own life. 17 00:04:26,600 --> 00:04:27,935 Now I'm not so sure anymore. 18 00:04:30,104 --> 00:04:31,271 But you are so young. 19 00:04:33,649 --> 00:04:36,318 Listen to yourself. 20 00:04:38,904 --> 00:04:40,906 I probably sound completely crazy, right? 21 00:04:45,911 --> 00:04:48,539 When I tell you I'm lonely, I don't want you to think... 22 00:04:50,124 --> 00:04:52,668 your sister's saying there's nothing to look forward to. 23 00:04:54,670 --> 00:04:55,879 I'm still looking for it. 24 00:05:51,643 --> 00:05:53,103 So you're really going to do it? 25 00:05:53,687 --> 00:05:54,687 Yes. 26 00:05:55,439 --> 00:05:56,439 Really? 27 00:05:57,191 --> 00:05:59,169 Yes, of course. What are you trying to say? 28 00:05:59,193 --> 00:06:00,360 I don't know. 29 00:06:01,779 --> 00:06:03,906 I'm sick of doing things that mean nothing. 30 00:06:11,205 --> 00:06:12,205 Here it is. 31 00:06:17,252 --> 00:06:19,606 So I'll just go into the water and then I'll do it. 32 00:06:19,630 --> 00:06:21,608 But please let me come with you. 33 00:06:21,632 --> 00:06:24,235 I want to watch it. What if you die? 34 00:06:24,259 --> 00:06:26,678 Oh, but I won't die. It'll be fine. 35 00:06:27,471 --> 00:06:29,389 I have to do it alone. You have to wait. 36 00:06:29,765 --> 00:06:31,100 You go in there. 37 00:06:32,226 --> 00:06:34,353 What if nothing happens? What does that mean? 38 00:06:34,978 --> 00:06:35,978 I don't know. 39 00:06:36,647 --> 00:06:37,898 Will you see God? 40 00:06:38,565 --> 00:06:39,565 I don't know. 41 00:06:39,817 --> 00:06:41,151 Will you hear him then? 42 00:06:45,447 --> 00:06:47,074 If you don't, what does that mean? 43 00:06:49,618 --> 00:06:50,618 I don't know. 44 00:06:51,912 --> 00:06:55,499 Maybe it's proof that there's a God. 45 00:06:57,918 --> 00:07:03,799 Or maybe if nothing happens, then that's proof that there's nothing. 46 00:07:05,759 --> 00:07:07,928 Or maybe it's proof that there's something. 47 00:08:31,220 --> 00:08:33,972 What happened? Are you okay? 48 00:08:59,122 --> 00:09:01,833 I'm hoping that Embla will be surprised. 49 00:09:02,501 --> 00:09:03,585 I think she will be. 50 00:09:04,002 --> 00:09:05,480 I'm excited to see her. 51 00:09:05,504 --> 00:09:07,089 Has it been long? 52 00:09:07,839 --> 00:09:09,299 It's been quite a while. 53 00:09:09,424 --> 00:09:11,551 She's living with her boyfriend in Bergen. 54 00:09:12,636 --> 00:09:15,264 So that will be nice. 55 00:09:16,390 --> 00:09:17,975 And Mom has fixed me up with a job. 56 00:09:19,351 --> 00:09:21,955 Do you remember Bengt? 57 00:09:21,979 --> 00:09:22,979 Yes I do. 58 00:09:23,480 --> 00:09:30,195 I'll be working in his store and living in a room above it. 59 00:09:31,071 --> 00:09:32,071 Short trip to work. 60 00:09:32,781 --> 00:09:35,134 Really short trip, so that's perfect. 61 00:09:35,158 --> 00:09:36,868 You'll have to visit. 62 00:09:37,202 --> 00:09:40,682 Oh yes, we will. And you'll visit your Grandfather there. 63 00:09:40,706 --> 00:09:41,683 Yes I'll do that. 64 00:09:41,707 --> 00:09:42,707 You must. 65 00:09:43,500 --> 00:09:44,584 He'll love it. 66 00:09:45,794 --> 00:09:48,940 I'm excited actually, even though it's a bit scary. 67 00:09:48,964 --> 00:09:49,964 A little scary, yeah. 68 00:09:51,758 --> 00:09:52,968 I'm sure it'll be fine. 69 00:09:53,677 --> 00:09:55,595 - Astrid, you're coming, right? - Sure. 70 00:10:16,825 --> 00:10:17,825 Goodbye, Astrid. 71 00:10:30,213 --> 00:10:32,466 It feels like water. 72 00:12:45,390 --> 00:12:46,892 I won't let go. 73 00:13:10,332 --> 00:13:12,727 It's so wonderful that Bergen never changes. 74 00:13:12,751 --> 00:13:15,253 Yeah. Lovely that it's the same, always. 75 00:13:17,797 --> 00:13:19,799 I want to do everything that we usually do. 76 00:13:19,925 --> 00:13:23,362 But that's what we're doing! I'm free from work. 77 00:13:23,386 --> 00:13:25,597 - You're the best. - We can do whatever we want! 78 00:13:25,764 --> 00:13:26,764 I'm excited. 79 00:13:31,061 --> 00:13:34,397 When you left I thought I'd never see you again. 80 00:13:37,484 --> 00:13:41,863 I know it's really strange, but I thought that was the last time. 81 00:13:44,616 --> 00:13:46,576 - Do you ever get that feeling? - No! 82 00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:53,083 You're supposed to be the sentimental one. 83 00:13:54,584 --> 00:13:59,422 You're the one who likes to talk about death and life... 84 00:14:00,090 --> 00:14:01,317 and reincarnation. 85 00:14:01,341 --> 00:14:03,552 When have I ever talked about reincarnation? 86 00:14:04,636 --> 00:14:07,430 But you like to talk about nature and swimming and stuff. 87 00:14:07,806 --> 00:14:09,140 You're so weird sometimes. 88 00:14:10,308 --> 00:14:14,521 OK, well, if that didn't get you excited, I've got better news. 89 00:14:15,105 --> 00:14:18,400 Better news than us being in Bergen and there actually being sun. 90 00:14:18,733 --> 00:14:19,733 What? 91 00:14:20,652 --> 00:14:21,820 I am moving here. 92 00:14:26,283 --> 00:14:27,534 I'm moving here. 93 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:30,160 Are you serious? 94 00:14:30,453 --> 00:14:32,723 Yes, of course I'm serious. 95 00:14:32,747 --> 00:14:36,060 I'm living above a store owned by a family friend 96 00:14:36,084 --> 00:14:38,044 who moved here awhile ago. 97 00:14:39,129 --> 00:14:42,215 I start working there in a week. I'm moving in right now. 98 00:14:47,804 --> 00:14:49,556 - What's happening? - Sit down. 99 00:14:51,141 --> 00:14:52,684 I have bad news. 100 00:14:55,020 --> 00:14:57,689 - Are you pregnant or something? - No, oh my god! 101 00:14:58,440 --> 00:14:59,816 I'm moving, too. 102 00:15:00,442 --> 00:15:02,193 Jarle and I are moving to Stockholm. 103 00:15:04,404 --> 00:15:05,947 When did you decide? 104 00:15:06,573 --> 00:15:09,743 A few weeks ago. Well... maybe... 105 00:15:10,493 --> 00:15:12,829 Jarle's parents? They live in Stockholm. 106 00:15:13,496 --> 00:15:14,496 You knew that? 107 00:15:15,832 --> 00:15:21,421 Jarle and I started thinking, and then we fell in love with the idea... 108 00:15:22,505 --> 00:15:26,635 then we found an apartment, rented the apartment... 109 00:15:27,469 --> 00:15:30,847 Now we're ready to leave. We're leaving. We're moving there. 110 00:15:40,273 --> 00:15:43,360 I can't believe I didn't tell you before. 111 00:15:48,615 --> 00:15:50,116 What were you going to say? 112 00:15:56,539 --> 00:15:57,624 Maybe I'll stay. 113 00:15:58,750 --> 00:16:00,335 But you... 114 00:16:04,839 --> 00:16:06,675 You can't stay just because of me. 115 00:16:09,552 --> 00:16:10,552 Right? 116 00:17:20,832 --> 00:17:25,545 Four? Then you'll need... then you'll need more rebar. 117 00:17:27,005 --> 00:17:28,798 When did you want it delivered? 118 00:17:32,135 --> 00:17:33,135 Tuesday. 119 00:17:38,641 --> 00:17:42,479 I'll have to check with the driver to see if it's alright. 120 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:02,123 So you're Bengt. 121 00:18:02,457 --> 00:18:03,875 Yes, that's me. 122 00:18:04,375 --> 00:18:06,312 It's been a while. Nice to see you. 123 00:18:06,336 --> 00:18:07,336 You too. 124 00:18:07,712 --> 00:18:09,339 What a nice store you have. 125 00:18:09,631 --> 00:18:10,631 Thank you so much. 126 00:18:11,382 --> 00:18:12,382 It's small, but... 127 00:18:13,176 --> 00:18:16,012 You've grown since last time. Wow! 128 00:18:16,554 --> 00:18:18,681 You were just this small. 129 00:18:23,353 --> 00:18:25,730 I wanted to say thank you very much from Mom. 130 00:18:26,606 --> 00:18:29,460 It's really nice of you to let me stay and work here... 131 00:18:29,484 --> 00:18:31,152 It's really nothing. 132 00:18:31,486 --> 00:18:34,197 We know each other already and everything. 133 00:18:37,617 --> 00:18:40,703 You've still got the same nose, I see. 134 00:18:41,329 --> 00:18:42,330 A little bit like... 135 00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:47,000 Little jump. 136 00:18:48,920 --> 00:18:52,900 But I won't keep you. You can see your room if you want to. 137 00:18:52,924 --> 00:18:57,112 - OK, where is...? - Walk outside, past three garage doors, 138 00:18:57,136 --> 00:19:00,431 around the corner, through a door, and then up a staircase. 139 00:19:01,349 --> 00:19:02,493 It should be open. 140 00:19:02,517 --> 00:19:03,619 I think I'll find it. 141 00:19:03,643 --> 00:19:06,205 A brown door. Well, there's only one door. 142 00:19:06,229 --> 00:19:08,940 And if you need anything else, I'm right here. 143 00:24:44,650 --> 00:24:48,029 He's acting strange. He's not usually like this. 144 00:24:49,071 --> 00:24:50,698 He's hilarious. 145 00:24:53,284 --> 00:24:56,579 I think we need to get him some air. 146 00:24:56,913 --> 00:24:57,913 Do you have time? 147 00:24:58,164 --> 00:24:59,164 Yes. 148 00:27:25,519 --> 00:27:26,645 I haven't decided yet. 149 00:27:34,653 --> 00:27:35,946 I'm still thinking about it. 150 00:27:37,823 --> 00:27:38,823 I understand. 151 00:28:13,609 --> 00:28:17,488 OLD HOSPITAL - EXIT 152 00:29:20,968 --> 00:29:22,219 What are you going to do? 153 00:29:27,224 --> 00:29:28,350 What would you do? 154 00:29:29,935 --> 00:29:30,954 Kill me. 155 00:29:30,978 --> 00:29:31,978 Seriously. 156 00:29:34,273 --> 00:29:36,025 I know it's wrong to think like this. 157 00:29:36,442 --> 00:29:39,045 It's just that we've known each other for ten years 158 00:29:39,069 --> 00:29:40,821 and you've only known him for one. 159 00:29:41,780 --> 00:29:44,658 No! You know how it really is! 160 00:29:45,743 --> 00:29:47,453 I didn't know you were moving here. 161 00:29:48,245 --> 00:29:49,245 I know. 162 00:29:51,165 --> 00:29:54,001 There's a part of me that feels like you're choosing him over me. 163 00:29:54,460 --> 00:29:55,461 It's not true. 164 00:29:57,213 --> 00:29:58,380 I know it's not true. 165 00:30:26,659 --> 00:30:29,828 Damn unwashed shit! 166 00:30:34,708 --> 00:30:35,751 Fucking... 167 00:30:36,961 --> 00:30:38,003 banana! 168 00:30:38,712 --> 00:30:40,089 Banana rinse! 169 00:30:41,257 --> 00:30:44,510 Ass pubes in the face of a goblin! 170 00:31:04,572 --> 00:31:06,532 Fucking washing machine! 171 00:31:08,993 --> 00:31:10,494 - Washing machine? - Yeah. 172 00:31:19,044 --> 00:31:20,963 Do you remember when we walked up there? 173 00:31:22,381 --> 00:31:25,175 Yes. I remember that. 174 00:31:26,885 --> 00:31:27,885 That was nice. 175 00:31:29,722 --> 00:31:33,892 I was there about a month ago. 176 00:31:36,145 --> 00:31:38,314 I was like they had closed off the area. 177 00:31:40,441 --> 00:31:41,525 It used to be beautiful. 178 00:31:46,488 --> 00:31:47,488 But hey? 179 00:31:49,325 --> 00:31:50,743 What's going to happen next? 180 00:31:51,869 --> 00:31:55,497 You have to tell me so it's not a surprise. 181 00:31:57,374 --> 00:31:58,834 You're going to leave, right? 182 00:32:00,794 --> 00:32:01,794 I have to. 183 00:32:04,381 --> 00:32:05,381 It's okay. 184 00:32:07,468 --> 00:32:09,053 - You're allowed. - I'm allowed? 185 00:32:14,975 --> 00:32:16,393 I will miss you so much. 186 00:32:18,479 --> 00:32:22,733 It's strange. We've been apart for so long, but... 187 00:32:23,150 --> 00:32:24,151 I don't think... 188 00:32:26,236 --> 00:32:28,280 I've missed you as much as I'm about to. 189 00:32:29,865 --> 00:32:31,367 I'll miss you a little, too. 190 00:32:42,753 --> 00:32:43,837 I feel embarrassed. 191 00:32:44,546 --> 00:32:45,546 Why? 192 00:32:46,757 --> 00:32:49,843 I shouldn't have just come here and assumed you'd stay forever. 193 00:32:51,136 --> 00:32:52,136 No. 194 00:32:52,262 --> 00:32:54,431 It was supposed to be a surprise. 195 00:32:58,018 --> 00:32:59,353 I'm so damn stupid. 196 00:33:01,105 --> 00:33:02,940 So damn stupid! 197 00:33:09,279 --> 00:33:11,448 But I'm not the key to you being happy here. 198 00:33:12,950 --> 00:33:13,950 That's you. 199 00:33:26,547 --> 00:33:28,841 Damn airplane of Satan! 200 00:33:33,137 --> 00:33:35,222 Fucking banana peel! 201 00:33:37,516 --> 00:33:40,161 We're going to a retirement home together! 202 00:33:40,185 --> 00:33:41,854 Retirement home! 203 00:33:42,730 --> 00:33:44,541 We're gonna sit in wheelchairs! 204 00:33:44,565 --> 00:33:46,376 Dagny's gonna be old! 205 00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:47,693 You're gonna be old! 206 00:33:47,901 --> 00:33:49,820 I'd love to have a wheelchair! 207 00:33:50,779 --> 00:33:53,365 Fucking banana milkshake! 208 00:33:55,117 --> 00:33:58,746 I'll put you in a microwave oven and grill you! 209 00:33:59,121 --> 00:34:00,956 Please don't do that! 210 00:34:01,290 --> 00:34:03,959 I hate soccer and fruitcake! 211 00:34:04,293 --> 00:34:05,293 Fruitcake? 212 00:34:09,590 --> 00:34:10,590 Goodbye, Embla. 213 00:34:52,633 --> 00:34:53,842 It feels like water. 214 00:34:57,930 --> 00:34:59,264 It feels like electricity. 215 00:35:02,643 --> 00:35:05,854 It sounds like a humming fridge. 216 00:35:10,776 --> 00:35:12,444 How quickly this could all be over. 217 00:35:16,240 --> 00:35:18,600 And it's in this realization where everything becomes clear. 218 00:35:22,621 --> 00:35:26,834 This big moment when I think about everything I've pushed aside, 219 00:35:27,209 --> 00:35:29,711 all these important and great truths, all at once. 220 00:35:42,391 --> 00:35:45,102 I have never felt a light like this. 221 00:35:48,897 --> 00:35:51,692 It feels like the loudest loud. 222 00:35:52,985 --> 00:35:53,985 And then, 223 00:35:56,071 --> 00:35:57,656 with no warning... 224 00:35:59,908 --> 00:36:00,909 it's silent. 225 00:38:22,009 --> 00:38:23,009 Hey, Bengt? 226 00:38:27,723 --> 00:38:29,599 What do you do when you're not working? 227 00:38:31,226 --> 00:38:32,226 What did you say? 228 00:38:32,561 --> 00:38:34,438 What do you do when you're not working? 229 00:38:35,397 --> 00:38:36,606 Not working... 230 00:38:41,987 --> 00:38:43,155 I'll watch a good movie. 231 00:38:45,157 --> 00:38:46,783 What's your favourite movie? 232 00:38:49,536 --> 00:38:50,996 Heathers. 233 00:38:53,081 --> 00:38:55,751 It's an incredibly good movie. 234 00:38:56,168 --> 00:38:59,296 It's about a girl named Veronica, 235 00:39:00,088 --> 00:39:04,235 and she's this really great girl, you know, 236 00:39:04,259 --> 00:39:10,098 and there's this clique of shallow girls called "Heathers", 237 00:39:10,849 --> 00:39:15,020 and it looks like your typical American high school comedy, but... 238 00:39:15,479 --> 00:39:17,564 all of a sudden this boy named JD shows up 239 00:39:18,523 --> 00:39:21,669 and he really raises hell. 240 00:39:21,693 --> 00:39:23,987 He goes around killing people in the school. 241 00:39:24,112 --> 00:39:28,116 And Veronica, she's in love with him at first. 242 00:39:28,450 --> 00:39:31,804 Then she even kills some people too. 243 00:39:31,828 --> 00:39:34,706 It's very unexpected and very twisted. 244 00:39:35,207 --> 00:39:40,605 I just thought it was brilliant. How they changed it around. 245 00:39:40,629 --> 00:39:45,234 The blood is flowing, the language and mood is very dark. 246 00:39:45,258 --> 00:39:46,468 Very funny. 247 00:39:47,677 --> 00:39:48,677 Cool. 248 00:39:51,473 --> 00:39:54,976 I remember when it came out. I saw it... 249 00:39:55,519 --> 00:39:56,519 '88. 250 00:39:57,312 --> 00:40:03,693 I love how it's so twisted and not what you'd expect. 251 00:40:05,028 --> 00:40:10,051 So, yeah, you expect it to be this American high school comedy, 252 00:40:10,075 --> 00:40:12,702 but it's so much more. 253 00:40:15,747 --> 00:40:17,541 Cool, I'll have to watch it. 254 00:40:18,083 --> 00:40:19,918 Yeah, absolutely. 255 00:40:23,046 --> 00:40:28,301 But you've been missing something. 256 00:40:32,472 --> 00:40:34,975 We've been talking this whole time but... 257 00:40:35,433 --> 00:40:37,561 you haven't noticed something important. 258 00:40:39,271 --> 00:40:40,939 Something I forgot to do or...? 259 00:40:42,190 --> 00:40:43,190 No. 260 00:40:46,611 --> 00:40:48,405 You're going to need to help me out here. 261 00:40:48,697 --> 00:40:49,823 Use your eyes! 262 00:40:53,743 --> 00:40:55,078 Oh, yeah! 263 00:40:56,746 --> 00:40:58,832 - Your shirt! - Yeah, my shirt. 264 00:40:59,416 --> 00:41:01,018 It looks nice. 265 00:41:01,042 --> 00:41:04,939 Yes, it's actually very nice. Just a little cool. 266 00:41:04,963 --> 00:41:08,425 I figured it was about time, now I've got someone working with me. 267 00:41:08,884 --> 00:41:12,262 You know, we're kind of a team. And that's... Yeah. 268 00:41:12,596 --> 00:41:13,596 It's okay. 269 00:41:14,324 --> 00:41:15,324 Yeah, that's good. 270 00:41:15,348 --> 00:41:18,935 I actually have a surprise for you. 271 00:41:20,145 --> 00:41:21,313 Just a moment. 272 00:41:33,700 --> 00:41:35,285 I wanted to say that... 273 00:41:35,785 --> 00:41:40,790 since you've been here, I've noticed a sales increase of 15%. 274 00:41:41,499 --> 00:41:43,335 And that is good news. 275 00:41:45,045 --> 00:41:46,314 I know you've only been here 276 00:41:46,338 --> 00:41:48,858 for two and a half weeks so it may be a coincidence. 277 00:41:48,882 --> 00:41:54,221 But there's something I've noticed that I wanted to tell you. 278 00:41:54,971 --> 00:41:56,806 It's that I appre... 279 00:41:58,350 --> 00:42:02,187 You are a valuable asset to the business and the team, 280 00:42:02,646 --> 00:42:07,776 and I appreciate your diligence, loyalty, hard work... 281 00:42:08,360 --> 00:42:10,820 and last but not least, your friendly appearance. 282 00:42:12,197 --> 00:42:13,197 So... 283 00:42:13,531 --> 00:42:17,160 in recognition of the increased revenue and your fine work ethic, 284 00:42:17,702 --> 00:42:21,265 I'd like to give you this uniform. 285 00:42:21,289 --> 00:42:22,290 Custom made. 286 00:42:22,874 --> 00:42:25,144 - Wow, for me? - For you. 287 00:42:25,168 --> 00:42:26,586 Here you go. 288 00:42:29,965 --> 00:42:31,216 It looks like it fits. 289 00:42:32,008 --> 00:42:33,008 Try it on. 290 00:43:05,041 --> 00:43:06,041 Wow! 291 00:43:07,502 --> 00:43:10,213 You look simply great. 292 00:43:10,755 --> 00:43:14,217 I'm so happy to see this, I just want to hug you. 293 00:43:14,968 --> 00:43:19,014 But that wouldn't be appropriate, of course, so I won't do that. 294 00:43:19,597 --> 00:43:22,285 Bengt, I just want to say thank you for the shirt. 295 00:43:22,309 --> 00:43:25,371 - Yeah? - Yes, I really appreciate it. 296 00:43:25,395 --> 00:43:26,813 Yeah, you're welcome. 297 00:43:32,193 --> 00:43:34,487 - Sorry, that was a little bit... - That's fine. 298 00:43:44,956 --> 00:43:46,374 Yes, but... 299 00:43:48,001 --> 00:43:51,087 Maybe it's time to lock up now? Or what do you think? 300 00:43:51,421 --> 00:43:56,926 Yeah, it's about time. I have to tidy up a bit. 301 00:44:11,191 --> 00:44:12,525 I'm going to take off then. 302 00:44:13,151 --> 00:44:14,903 Yeah, I'm going home, too. 303 00:44:17,030 --> 00:44:18,990 Yes, but we'll see each other tomorrow. 304 00:44:20,492 --> 00:44:21,534 - Goodbye. - Goodbye. 305 00:48:19,731 --> 00:48:20,982 How did I get here? 306 00:48:23,359 --> 00:48:24,694 Everything that I've done, 307 00:48:25,111 --> 00:48:26,529 everywhere that I've been, 308 00:48:27,488 --> 00:48:31,159 has led me to this moment, laying here in this exact bed. 309 00:48:32,952 --> 00:48:34,495 I remember my old room 310 00:48:34,704 --> 00:48:37,165 and the bunk bed that eventually became too small. 311 00:48:38,625 --> 00:48:42,211 I remember the sound and my heart breaking when my dad took it down. 312 00:48:43,504 --> 00:48:44,756 My room at home. 313 00:48:46,049 --> 00:48:47,675 Hearing my mom through the floor. 314 00:48:48,551 --> 00:48:50,029 She would be in the kitchen, 315 00:48:50,053 --> 00:48:51,387 talking on the phone, 316 00:48:52,388 --> 00:48:53,388 telling jokes, 317 00:48:54,223 --> 00:48:55,725 and sometimes crying. 318 00:48:57,852 --> 00:48:59,687 The bed my brother and I shared... 319 00:49:00,396 --> 00:49:02,357 on a family vacation to Mexico. 320 00:49:03,191 --> 00:49:05,234 The back seat of our family station wagon. 321 00:49:05,485 --> 00:49:07,070 The seats were red and yellow. 322 00:49:08,905 --> 00:49:11,115 Falling asleep with a big day ahead. 323 00:49:13,159 --> 00:49:15,203 Falling asleep after a big day. 324 00:49:16,621 --> 00:49:19,415 Sitting up in bed the night before my first day of school, 325 00:49:20,083 --> 00:49:21,417 the window wide open. 326 00:49:22,669 --> 00:49:24,921 Freedom was about to disappear, 327 00:49:26,255 --> 00:49:29,008 but in the summer air I could still feel it. 328 00:49:31,219 --> 00:49:34,764 Watching the stars as I fell asleep in the basket of my dad's bike... 329 00:49:35,640 --> 00:49:37,100 on the way home from Vattedal. 330 00:49:39,227 --> 00:49:42,522 Driving past the home I grew up in. A new family lived there. 331 00:49:43,731 --> 00:49:45,483 The street was the same as always. 332 00:49:46,567 --> 00:49:49,153 All the neighbours we grew up with were still there, 333 00:49:50,238 --> 00:49:54,117 but for some reason, I felt that I was no longer welcome. 334 00:49:55,284 --> 00:49:58,037 Picking apples at my Grandpa's house when I was seven. 335 00:49:58,746 --> 00:49:59,973 Coming home with buckets full, 336 00:49:59,997 --> 00:50:02,357 lining them up in beer flats and selling them to neighbours. 337 00:50:05,253 --> 00:50:09,507 Watching our first house get torn down to make way for condos. 338 00:50:11,300 --> 00:50:14,846 I remember sleeping in a strange bed at a party that my parents were at. 339 00:50:15,805 --> 00:50:19,684 The sheets were red and smelled different than home. 340 00:50:21,561 --> 00:50:24,647 I could hear the adults laughing on the second floor... 341 00:50:25,148 --> 00:50:27,316 and smell the distant scent of cigarettes. 342 00:50:28,484 --> 00:50:30,236 I wondered what they were talking about. 343 00:50:31,404 --> 00:50:32,739 Were they talking about me? 344 00:50:33,531 --> 00:50:35,366 Would they remember to take me home? 345 00:50:38,494 --> 00:50:39,787 Comforting my mom... 346 00:50:41,706 --> 00:50:44,000 when she broke down crying in the laundry room. 347 00:50:46,335 --> 00:50:47,378 My dad's living room, 348 00:50:48,713 --> 00:50:50,381 him sitting beside me. 349 00:50:54,135 --> 00:50:55,136 The last walk... 350 00:50:55,720 --> 00:50:58,723 through my grandparents' house when they both died, 351 00:50:59,891 --> 00:51:02,185 saying goodbye to each room with a kiss. 352 00:51:06,606 --> 00:51:08,983 I remember my bed at my grandparents' house. 353 00:51:11,152 --> 00:51:12,838 The floral bed covers, 354 00:51:12,862 --> 00:51:15,281 and the way my grandma would wrap me up in them. 355 00:51:18,951 --> 00:51:21,579 I remember waking up in front of a TV that wasn't on, 356 00:51:22,246 --> 00:51:23,998 without knowing how I got there. 357 00:51:29,670 --> 00:51:31,798 The last day in the house I grew up in. 358 00:51:34,509 --> 00:51:38,971 Looking at the ceiling and the things I never noticed, 359 00:51:41,766 --> 00:51:44,310 swearing to myself that I wouldn't forget any of it. 360 00:51:57,949 --> 00:51:59,534 Fantastic! 361 00:52:00,535 --> 00:52:03,246 I can't beat that. 362 00:52:03,621 --> 00:52:06,582 You win, I lose. I always lose. 363 00:52:08,709 --> 00:52:12,713 Can you grab the plaster that was just delivered? 364 00:52:14,131 --> 00:52:15,591 It's in the back. 365 00:52:17,301 --> 00:52:19,804 Next to the boxes. 366 00:52:21,806 --> 00:52:22,807 Fantastic. 367 00:52:28,271 --> 00:52:29,272 What is it? 368 00:52:31,691 --> 00:52:34,735 This stuff is for floors. Right? 369 00:52:38,781 --> 00:52:43,744 Sorry, you almost had it. It's right beside it. 370 00:52:48,207 --> 00:52:49,876 Oh, you can't win 'em all. 371 00:52:50,501 --> 00:52:51,836 You can't win 'em all. 372 00:52:53,671 --> 00:52:55,172 But I fall at the first hurdle. 373 00:52:56,716 --> 00:52:58,217 Have you heard those two phrases? 374 00:52:58,718 --> 00:53:01,971 "Can't win 'em all" and "Fall at the first hurdle"? 375 00:53:02,972 --> 00:53:05,349 That's like you and me, kind of. 376 00:53:06,142 --> 00:53:08,269 You: Can't win 'em all. 377 00:53:08,769 --> 00:53:11,456 And me: Falling at the first hurdle. 378 00:53:11,480 --> 00:53:14,525 But it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game. 379 00:53:33,794 --> 00:53:34,962 I had a dream last night. 380 00:53:38,090 --> 00:53:39,300 What did you dream about? 381 00:53:40,676 --> 00:53:45,056 Well, it was quite funny. I think I had won a car race. 382 00:53:45,514 --> 00:53:49,852 And at the end I received all these prizes. 383 00:53:50,728 --> 00:53:55,691 You know those dreams where you wake up and everything is gone? 384 00:53:57,735 --> 00:54:00,923 I was in an open space in the middle of a desert, 385 00:54:00,947 --> 00:54:02,883 and there was a river there, 386 00:54:02,907 --> 00:54:04,951 and so many great prizes. 387 00:54:05,660 --> 00:54:10,515 You know the kind of stuff you win in game shows, right? Amazing prizes. 388 00:54:10,539 --> 00:54:12,416 Like stuffed bunnies? 389 00:54:14,627 --> 00:54:20,174 You were there and you kissed me when I won and you were so happy. 390 00:54:20,383 --> 00:54:24,071 And there were these amazing cars and speed boats 391 00:54:24,095 --> 00:54:26,764 and everything was just... Yeah. 392 00:55:08,764 --> 00:55:12,852 If you're a little unsure, I can just leave these here... 393 00:55:13,394 --> 00:55:14,854 and you can come back. 394 00:55:15,896 --> 00:55:18,733 OK, I'll see you later then. Have a good day! 395 00:55:23,237 --> 00:55:24,237 Dagny? 396 00:55:26,407 --> 00:55:27,887 I've been thinking about what I said. 397 00:55:27,911 --> 00:55:30,679 I actually haven't stopped thinking about it. 398 00:55:30,703 --> 00:55:32,788 I'm sorry I told you about the dream. 399 00:55:33,956 --> 00:55:36,083 It's totally alright. Let's just forget about it, OK? 400 00:55:38,836 --> 00:55:40,230 Are you sure? 401 00:55:40,254 --> 00:55:41,254 Yeah. 402 00:55:43,299 --> 00:55:44,299 So... 403 00:55:45,259 --> 00:55:46,927 everything's alright between us? 404 00:55:47,053 --> 00:55:48,053 Yeah, yeah. 405 00:55:48,554 --> 00:55:51,849 To be honest, I've been getting very little sleep. 406 00:55:52,266 --> 00:55:53,869 And my diet's been a little strange. 407 00:55:53,893 --> 00:55:56,913 I feel like I haven't been getting the right nutrients... 408 00:55:56,937 --> 00:55:57,980 - Hey, Bengt? - Yes? 409 00:55:58,814 --> 00:56:00,775 And my back has been a bit bad also! 410 00:56:01,567 --> 00:56:04,046 So that's been affecting my sleep... 411 00:56:04,070 --> 00:56:05,589 - Bengt? - Yes? 412 00:56:05,613 --> 00:56:07,823 It's completely alright. We'll just forget it, OK? 413 00:56:08,657 --> 00:56:09,657 Alright? 414 00:56:19,585 --> 00:56:22,880 It's a little nicer in here now. I've put up pictures and stuff. 415 00:56:24,882 --> 00:56:26,592 It's kind of cozy. 416 00:56:28,511 --> 00:56:30,311 The only thing is that it's a little bit cold. 417 00:56:35,476 --> 00:56:37,937 I just have to save some money to buy a heater. 418 00:56:41,357 --> 00:56:43,192 I'm supposed to ask Bengt about that? 419 00:56:44,485 --> 00:56:45,485 I can't do that. 420 00:56:46,403 --> 00:56:49,740 He's given me a job and a place to stay, and I can't just... 421 00:56:52,701 --> 00:56:54,495 No, Mom. Hello. 422 00:56:59,792 --> 00:57:02,503 I guess I have to be cold then. Yeah, I will. 423 00:57:10,344 --> 00:57:16,225 No. He's nice, a little weird, but that's okay. 424 00:59:21,934 --> 00:59:22,934 Hey, Dagny! 425 00:59:23,663 --> 00:59:24,663 Have you locked up? 426 00:59:24,687 --> 00:59:25,521 Yes. 427 00:59:25,646 --> 00:59:26,646 Hey... 428 00:59:27,856 --> 00:59:29,817 I need to pick up some supplies tonight, 429 00:59:30,234 --> 00:59:32,820 so I was wondering if you could give me a helping hand. 430 00:59:33,445 --> 00:59:39,159 It would be really nice if you could. It won't take long. 431 00:59:40,953 --> 00:59:43,348 I need to get some food. I'm starving. 432 00:59:43,372 --> 00:59:46,583 I have food in my car from today that I haven't eaten. 433 00:59:47,042 --> 00:59:48,168 It'll be fast. 434 00:59:48,752 --> 00:59:50,587 Come on. Come for a ride. 435 00:59:54,591 --> 00:59:57,344 Alright, but only if you let me open the store later tomorrow. 436 00:59:58,637 --> 00:59:59,637 Yeah, yeah. 437 01:00:00,389 --> 01:00:01,389 OK. 438 01:00:34,590 --> 01:00:35,632 Is that everything? 439 01:00:36,008 --> 01:00:37,008 Yeah. 440 01:02:07,433 --> 01:02:10,561 There's something I should tell you. 441 01:02:15,149 --> 01:02:17,151 I think I'm going to sell the store. 442 01:02:21,196 --> 01:02:26,618 I think it would be good to start over and do something different. 443 01:02:32,708 --> 01:02:36,753 It would obviously affect you, too... 444 01:02:39,715 --> 01:02:43,677 but I haven't quite decided yet. 445 01:02:46,555 --> 01:02:51,268 I don't know what you think about that. 446 01:03:00,277 --> 01:03:05,407 Yeah, it would be so good to, like, get a new life. 447 01:03:16,251 --> 01:03:17,461 You know what... 448 01:03:20,756 --> 01:03:22,841 That's not what I'm trying to say. 449 01:03:24,301 --> 01:03:25,969 What I'm trying to say is... 450 01:03:26,512 --> 01:03:28,889 I'm so lonely, OK? 451 01:03:30,057 --> 01:03:31,850 So incredibly lonely. 452 01:03:35,771 --> 01:03:41,193 I just open the store, run the store, sit behind the counter, lock up and... 453 01:03:41,735 --> 01:03:42,735 go home. 454 01:03:46,740 --> 01:03:49,368 I don't have the will to do anything else. 455 01:03:53,789 --> 01:03:56,124 It's like I can't keep up with everyone else and... 456 01:03:58,877 --> 01:04:00,504 I just feel so insignificant. 457 01:04:04,049 --> 01:04:05,300 I have no energy. 458 01:04:13,934 --> 01:04:16,853 What I see every day is just customers coming in. 459 01:04:22,150 --> 01:04:25,630 They don't really come to see me. 460 01:04:25,654 --> 01:04:29,741 They could just as well go somewhere else. 461 01:04:32,995 --> 01:04:33,995 So, I... 462 01:04:41,753 --> 01:04:42,753 I feel... 463 01:04:44,965 --> 01:04:48,427 I don't feel like I'm worth anything. I don't have anything. 464 01:04:49,511 --> 01:04:51,388 It's like I've never had anything. 465 01:04:59,062 --> 01:05:00,314 But then your mom called, 466 01:05:06,862 --> 01:05:07,862 and said... 467 01:05:15,329 --> 01:05:16,747 that the girl of my dreams... 468 01:05:18,707 --> 01:05:20,000 was coming to live with me. 469 01:05:21,376 --> 01:05:22,419 She didn't say that. 470 01:05:25,881 --> 01:05:26,881 But you are. 471 01:05:29,635 --> 01:05:31,053 I haven't been this happy... 472 01:05:32,471 --> 01:05:34,681 The last month has been the first time in... 473 01:05:36,391 --> 01:05:40,479 maybe my entire life that I've been truly happy. 474 01:05:42,439 --> 01:05:45,817 I haven't known how to handle it. 475 01:05:48,070 --> 01:05:50,405 I've been so full of emotions. I haven't... 476 01:05:52,407 --> 01:05:56,161 I haven't been able to figure out how to act, you know? 477 01:05:58,622 --> 01:05:59,831 And I've been thinking that... 478 01:06:03,794 --> 01:06:04,794 One day I'll die. 479 01:06:07,381 --> 01:06:08,965 You're going to die one day, too. 480 01:06:09,716 --> 01:06:13,220 I think if we don't do this, we'll regret it. 481 01:06:18,100 --> 01:06:21,311 I just want to... grab your head and... 482 01:06:23,730 --> 01:06:25,440 shake it. 483 01:06:25,982 --> 01:06:28,503 And tell you I could give you everything you've ever wanted... 484 01:06:28,527 --> 01:06:29,837 Please stop. 485 01:06:29,861 --> 01:06:30,861 Yes, but... 486 01:06:32,739 --> 01:06:37,637 If you would only let me, I would make you the happiest girl in the whole world. 487 01:06:37,661 --> 01:06:40,622 It would make me happy if you stopped talking about this, Bengt. 488 01:06:54,761 --> 01:06:56,114 You are so fucking stupid, Bengt. 489 01:06:56,138 --> 01:07:00,225 You're so fucking stupid, so damn pathetic! 490 01:07:01,017 --> 01:07:06,022 Nobody wants to be with you, Bengt. Fuck, you're so stupid, fuck! 491 01:07:07,149 --> 01:07:11,445 You're so goddamn stupid, you fucking crybaby. 492 01:07:13,280 --> 01:07:14,781 Please. 493 01:07:15,407 --> 01:07:17,284 Please! 494 01:07:17,784 --> 01:07:19,262 Please! 495 01:07:19,286 --> 01:07:22,581 - No more! - Yes, but please, listen to me! 496 01:07:25,292 --> 01:07:26,293 I love you. 497 01:07:28,879 --> 01:07:31,465 I've loved you since you were a little girl. 498 01:07:32,632 --> 01:07:33,717 Don't you understand? 499 01:07:34,801 --> 01:07:37,345 Of course you couldn't know that but... 500 01:07:38,597 --> 01:07:43,143 but when you were little I watched you. I could watch you all day long. 501 01:07:43,560 --> 01:07:47,248 I just thought... that one day if something wonderful could happen, 502 01:07:47,272 --> 01:07:48,774 you and I could be... 503 01:07:52,360 --> 01:07:53,528 I saw you. 504 01:07:54,237 --> 01:07:56,299 You were outside playful, having fun. 505 01:07:56,323 --> 01:07:58,283 You were so happy, you were so joyful! 506 01:07:59,242 --> 01:08:01,345 Do you know how painful that was for me? 507 01:08:01,369 --> 01:08:03,789 Do you know how painful it was to see you? 508 01:08:05,624 --> 01:08:08,603 I wanted to be the one to make you happy. Do you understand? 509 01:08:08,627 --> 01:08:12,064 I wanted to be the one... I wanted to be the one to make you happy! 510 01:08:12,088 --> 01:08:13,088 Do you understand? 511 01:08:14,341 --> 01:08:18,261 I couldn't be there anymore. I had to get away. 512 01:08:18,637 --> 01:08:20,823 I couldn't stay there anymore! 513 01:08:20,847 --> 01:08:22,641 What if I say I never want to see you again? 514 01:08:24,267 --> 01:08:25,310 What will you do then? 515 01:08:43,036 --> 01:08:44,036 Sorry. 516 01:08:47,958 --> 01:08:49,084 I'm sorry. 517 01:09:30,709 --> 01:09:31,710 Where are you going? 518 01:09:38,216 --> 01:09:39,759 I know exactly where you're going. 519 01:11:05,929 --> 01:11:06,929 Where are you? 520 01:11:07,597 --> 01:11:08,597 Dagny! 521 01:11:10,392 --> 01:11:12,185 Dagny! Are you here? 522 01:11:13,311 --> 01:11:15,730 I didn't mean to scare you, OK? 523 01:11:16,314 --> 01:11:17,357 Dagny! 524 01:11:17,899 --> 01:11:19,234 I have no one else! 525 01:11:21,861 --> 01:11:24,322 Dagny...! 526 01:11:33,081 --> 01:11:34,081 Goodbye, Bengt. 527 01:12:11,077 --> 01:12:12,162 It feels like water. 528 01:12:14,664 --> 01:12:15,999 It feels like electricity. 529 01:12:18,710 --> 01:12:21,963 It sounds like a humming fridge. 530 01:12:34,768 --> 01:12:35,935 It's holding the water. 531 01:12:36,436 --> 01:12:37,896 If there was ever such a thing. 532 01:12:44,569 --> 01:12:47,906 Water made shapeable and malleable in your palm. 533 01:13:01,461 --> 01:13:05,423 We, living in this lifetime, are only here for a flash. 534 01:13:06,216 --> 01:13:10,303 And in that miniscule amount of time, there is a remarkably shorter measurement, 535 01:13:10,887 --> 01:13:12,472 which is this moment right here. 536 01:13:13,890 --> 01:13:15,308 Did I do everything alright? 537 01:13:28,863 --> 01:13:30,198 It feels like happiness. 538 01:13:31,658 --> 01:13:34,244 It feels like remembering faces and words. 539 01:13:56,141 --> 01:13:57,892 It feels like a discovery. 540 01:14:07,735 --> 01:14:11,614 This discovery yields the notion that our souls, like silk, 541 01:14:12,365 --> 01:14:13,658 are suspended on nothing. 542 01:14:20,915 --> 01:14:21,916 It feels warm. 543 01:14:26,171 --> 01:14:27,630 Everything will be okay. 544 01:15:39,244 --> 01:15:42,497 Good morning. Were you late last night? 545 01:15:43,164 --> 01:15:45,917 Yes, I'm sorry. I hope I didn't wake you. 546 01:15:47,377 --> 01:15:48,604 Do you want a waffle? 547 01:15:48,628 --> 01:15:51,232 - Yes, please. - One? Two? Four? 548 01:15:51,256 --> 01:15:52,256 One is good. 549 01:15:56,219 --> 01:15:57,219 Hey. 550 01:15:58,888 --> 01:16:03,726 I don't think I've told this one before, but a friend who worked at a pizza place, 551 01:16:04,394 --> 01:16:07,563 he told me about a guest who came in. 552 01:16:08,690 --> 01:16:10,000 She ordered a pizza, 553 01:16:10,024 --> 01:16:12,610 and so he asked the lady, 554 01:16:13,361 --> 01:16:15,905 "Should I cut it into four or eight?" 555 01:16:17,490 --> 01:16:21,202 And she looks at him and says, 556 01:16:21,786 --> 01:16:26,291 "You'll have to cut it in four because I don't think I can eat eight!" 557 01:16:29,335 --> 01:16:30,962 Oh, well, bad joke. 558 01:16:32,171 --> 01:16:33,881 I thought it was funny, Grandpa. 559 01:16:57,405 --> 01:16:59,365 When I need to be by myself, 560 01:17:00,325 --> 01:17:01,534 I take walks. 561 01:17:02,201 --> 01:17:04,054 Look, I'll draw you a map 562 01:17:04,078 --> 01:17:06,789 so you can see where it's nice to take walks. 563 01:17:07,457 --> 01:17:09,500 I usually walk through the cemetery. 564 01:17:10,376 --> 01:17:12,003 There it is extra peaceful. 565 01:17:12,670 --> 01:17:16,966 Then you'll get to gather your thoughts and, at the same time, think new thoughts. 566 01:17:17,925 --> 01:17:22,305 Look here, I'll show you. You walk up along Haukeland hospital. 567 01:17:23,139 --> 01:17:24,139 Then you're here. 568 01:17:24,682 --> 01:17:25,975 The main building, right? 569 01:17:26,517 --> 01:17:29,937 Then you have the other blocks over here, the old ones. 570 01:17:30,730 --> 01:17:32,357 And here lies Møllendal. 571 01:17:33,399 --> 01:17:35,651 Did you know your great grandpa is buried there? 572 01:17:35,985 --> 01:17:36,985 You knew that? 573 01:17:38,654 --> 01:17:42,009 And when you want to come back, you have two options. 574 01:17:42,033 --> 01:17:46,013 Either you can walk along Store Lungegårdsvannet, 575 01:17:46,037 --> 01:17:47,681 by the train station, 576 01:17:47,705 --> 01:17:50,917 or you can go over the Old Nygård Bridge. 577 01:17:53,836 --> 01:17:55,630 It'll be good for you to take a walk. 578 01:17:56,339 --> 01:17:57,340 Thank you, Grandpa. 579 01:26:08,539 --> 01:26:09,539 Tomorrow? 580 01:26:14,420 --> 01:26:15,420 I'm excited. 581 01:26:16,422 --> 01:26:17,590 It'll be nice to see you. 582 01:26:19,717 --> 01:26:20,717 OK. 583 01:26:21,302 --> 01:26:22,302 You too. 584 01:26:23,095 --> 01:26:24,095 Bye. 585 01:26:44,450 --> 01:26:45,450 You alright? 586 01:27:25,658 --> 01:27:27,534 My name is Andrew. 587 01:27:29,787 --> 01:27:31,038 My name is Andrew. 588 01:27:41,340 --> 01:27:44,802 I think you have a very nice face. 589 01:29:48,967 --> 01:29:51,095 ART IS LONG, LIFE IS SHORT 590 01:30:34,429 --> 01:30:35,597 Shooting star! 591 01:33:23,432 --> 01:33:24,474 Goodbye, Andrew. 592 01:33:30,522 --> 01:33:31,732 It feels like water. 593 01:33:34,568 --> 01:33:35,902 It feels like electricity. 594 01:33:38,447 --> 01:33:40,991 It sounds like a humming fridge. 595 01:33:43,160 --> 01:33:45,680 Some part of my brain is telling me that it's not pleasant, 596 01:33:45,704 --> 01:33:47,039 that I have to fight it. 597 01:33:50,417 --> 01:33:51,626 So I fight it. 598 01:33:55,255 --> 01:33:57,132 Then, after a few moments of fighting, 599 01:33:57,632 --> 01:33:59,610 I realize that there's nothing I can do, 600 01:33:59,634 --> 01:34:01,136 that it's not going to stop. 601 01:34:01,762 --> 01:34:03,138 So I accept it. 602 01:34:04,181 --> 01:34:06,475 And because I've told my brain that it's OK, 603 01:34:07,267 --> 01:34:09,061 the water turns into something nice. 604 01:34:12,105 --> 01:34:14,733 Then, it's all around me and I am home. 605 01:34:16,693 --> 01:34:19,905 I go underwater. Back to the womb. 606 01:34:24,993 --> 01:34:27,120 It feels so good to become nothing. 607 01:34:31,166 --> 01:34:33,001 I feel my chest getting lighter. 608 01:34:35,545 --> 01:34:36,588 I feel peace. 609 01:34:39,591 --> 01:34:40,842 This is peace. 610 01:34:43,512 --> 01:34:45,347 And I hope you have a good life, 611 01:34:48,266 --> 01:34:49,266 whoever you are. 612 01:34:51,895 --> 01:34:56,817 GRANDFATHER 613 01:34:59,694 --> 01:35:00,694 Hi, Grandpa. 614 01:35:00,779 --> 01:35:02,280 Good morning. 615 01:35:02,823 --> 01:35:03,966 You're up early. 616 01:35:03,990 --> 01:35:07,702 Yeah, when you reach my age you don't need much sleep. 617 01:35:09,037 --> 01:35:10,247 Will you stay for awhile? 618 01:35:10,622 --> 01:35:12,809 I have to go out to the airport and pick up Embla. 619 01:35:12,833 --> 01:35:14,042 She arrives at eight. 620 01:35:14,501 --> 01:35:15,895 But I can stay for a while. 621 01:35:15,919 --> 01:35:16,962 You can borrow my car. 622 01:35:18,672 --> 01:35:19,672 I'd like that. 623 01:35:21,216 --> 01:35:25,095 Good. So, you had another late night out. 624 01:35:26,012 --> 01:35:29,659 But that's good, young people are supposed to stay out late. 625 01:35:29,683 --> 01:35:33,562 Your grandma and I, we used to stay out until dawn. 626 01:35:33,895 --> 01:35:37,667 When people say they used to stay out all night, 627 01:35:37,691 --> 01:35:39,359 they might be exaggerating, 628 01:35:39,860 --> 01:35:43,738 but we danced until sunrise. 629 01:35:44,072 --> 01:35:45,157 You danced? 630 01:35:46,408 --> 01:35:49,327 Yes, but Grandma was the best. She was really good. 631 01:35:50,162 --> 01:35:55,333 I've never been a good dancer, but that didn't stop me. 632 01:35:55,917 --> 01:35:57,377 I would have liked to see that. 633 01:35:58,670 --> 01:35:59,671 Why did you stop? 634 01:36:01,548 --> 01:36:03,383 Maybe I lost my confidence. 635 01:36:03,925 --> 01:36:09,449 No, dancing was fashionable, it was modern, but fashions change. 636 01:36:09,473 --> 01:36:12,559 We eventually found other ways to spend our nights. 637 01:36:14,728 --> 01:36:19,858 It was always Grandma who initiated it. I joined because I knew she liked it. 638 01:36:21,026 --> 01:36:22,527 You're a good man, Grandpa. 639 01:36:23,695 --> 01:36:25,697 You know, I loved her. 640 01:36:28,241 --> 01:36:29,241 So... 641 01:36:29,951 --> 01:36:30,994 you were out dancing? 642 01:36:31,411 --> 01:36:32,411 No. 643 01:36:32,829 --> 01:36:36,041 I was at a party at someone's house. 644 01:36:37,334 --> 01:36:40,504 I met a new friend. His name is Andrew. 645 01:36:43,173 --> 01:36:46,760 We talked about a lot of things. Not the answers to everything, but... 646 01:36:47,969 --> 01:36:49,989 it was nice to have someone to talk with. 647 01:36:50,013 --> 01:36:52,140 You'll never find all the answers. 648 01:36:52,766 --> 01:36:57,020 I've seen a lot firsthand, but I'm still left with a thousand questions. 649 01:36:57,604 --> 01:36:58,604 What kind of questions? 650 01:37:00,315 --> 01:37:01,751 No, we don't need to talk about it. 651 01:37:01,775 --> 01:37:03,568 No, that's alright, that's alright. 652 01:37:04,611 --> 01:37:06,655 I guess one question is... 653 01:37:07,822 --> 01:37:10,825 have I done enough to honour her? 654 01:37:12,202 --> 01:37:15,622 Maybe I should go on an extravagant trip. 655 01:37:16,665 --> 01:37:20,377 But what would be the purpose of that? 656 01:37:22,045 --> 01:37:26,299 It might not be of any importance at all. 657 01:37:29,636 --> 01:37:33,515 It's a little silly, but I ponder these questions. 658 01:37:34,683 --> 01:37:36,309 Impossible questions. 659 01:37:37,269 --> 01:37:39,604 Do you think it helps to ask yourself these questions? 660 01:37:40,855 --> 01:37:43,751 I don't have an answer for that either. 661 01:37:43,775 --> 01:37:46,945 But I know you just have to do whatever you can. 662 01:37:47,529 --> 01:37:50,490 You must take responsibility for what you have received. 663 01:37:52,158 --> 01:37:57,539 You can't rely on others to do it for you, because eventually, they won't be there. 664 01:37:59,833 --> 01:38:01,793 It's up to you. 665 01:38:02,961 --> 01:38:06,840 Are these questions about Grandma? Or about yourself? 666 01:38:07,882 --> 01:38:09,801 These are questions about all kinds of things, 667 01:38:10,135 --> 01:38:11,344 but mostly about myself. 668 01:38:12,762 --> 01:38:17,100 I have accepted what has happened. I am who I am. 669 01:38:19,269 --> 01:38:20,395 People tell me... 670 01:38:23,231 --> 01:38:27,253 I should move on, but I don't understand that. 671 01:38:27,277 --> 01:38:28,486 Move on to what? 672 01:38:28,987 --> 01:38:30,530 Where do they want me to go? 673 01:38:34,701 --> 01:38:38,723 Maybe I am just misunderstood. I don't intend to shut the door behind me. 674 01:38:38,747 --> 01:38:40,248 She never did. 675 01:38:43,627 --> 01:38:47,839 Like I said, I don't intend to forget about my past. 676 01:38:48,381 --> 01:38:52,177 But memory is fleeting, especially for a man like me. 677 01:38:54,429 --> 01:38:57,307 More and more time passes between when I think about her. 678 01:38:58,183 --> 01:38:59,684 Right after she passed away, 679 01:39:00,101 --> 01:39:03,271 I thought about her all the time, every hour. 680 01:39:05,106 --> 01:39:06,483 Then once a day. 681 01:39:07,317 --> 01:39:08,860 Every other day, once a week. 682 01:39:10,570 --> 01:39:13,531 As time moves on, it's only natural to begin to forget. 683 01:39:14,115 --> 01:39:17,911 And then suddenly you feel like you're in the same room as them. 684 01:39:20,080 --> 01:39:24,209 You see their light in friends and family. 685 01:39:25,126 --> 01:39:27,671 Even in people that you don't know. 686 01:39:30,131 --> 01:39:34,052 It's their way of still being with you, of checking in. 687 01:39:37,472 --> 01:39:41,935 Their mannerisms appear in odd places. 688 01:39:44,604 --> 01:39:47,732 That feeling of being near them returns. 689 01:39:49,359 --> 01:39:52,195 You remember for a brief moment. 690 01:39:53,279 --> 01:39:54,864 It's a great comfort. 691 01:39:57,367 --> 01:39:59,369 Could Grandma speak? 692 01:40:00,203 --> 01:40:01,538 Very well. 693 01:40:02,163 --> 01:40:04,290 Almost to the very end, which I am very thankful for. 694 01:40:04,999 --> 01:40:09,212 You know, she didn't go so quickly that I couldn't say goodbye. 695 01:40:09,671 --> 01:40:11,423 I got to say goodbye properly. 696 01:40:13,967 --> 01:40:17,554 And I'm glad she understood all that I said. 697 01:40:19,347 --> 01:40:23,727 Not many people are able to do that. I remember saying, 698 01:40:24,602 --> 01:40:28,231 "Thank you, thank you, thank you," again and again. 699 01:40:31,401 --> 01:40:36,114 I'd ask her how she felt, and she would say, "Not good." 700 01:40:37,115 --> 01:40:40,410 The next day I'd ask again, and she'd say the same thing, 701 01:40:40,577 --> 01:40:41,577 "Not good." 702 01:40:43,121 --> 01:40:44,372 Eventually she said, 703 01:40:44,831 --> 01:40:50,003 "What's the point of asking if you know I'm going to say 'not good'?" 704 01:40:52,589 --> 01:40:57,260 I guess I was hoping that one day everything would be better. 705 01:40:58,887 --> 01:41:02,015 I'd never been in a situation like this so I never knew what to say. 706 01:41:02,724 --> 01:41:05,810 I just wanted her to be comfortable. 707 01:41:08,354 --> 01:41:11,483 The next day, when she woke up, I asked her how she felt. 708 01:41:11,816 --> 01:41:14,235 There was a different look in her eyes. 709 01:41:14,736 --> 01:41:16,446 She took a breath and said, 710 01:41:19,240 --> 01:41:20,784 "It feels like water." 711 01:41:24,704 --> 01:41:27,373 "It feels like electricity." 712 01:41:31,586 --> 01:41:35,632 "It feels like a humming fridge." 713 01:41:39,552 --> 01:41:40,552 And she said... 714 01:41:41,721 --> 01:41:42,806 that she saw... 715 01:41:43,890 --> 01:41:47,268 the people who loved her the most. 716 01:42:03,701 --> 01:42:04,994 Goodbye, Grandpa.